Day 4

  Woke up today and found that I had ran out of the filters.  I thought they were 2 packs of cigarettes but they are only one.  Damn!  I was good though and only smoked a couple of “real” cigarettes until I went to work.  Once I got to work I didn’t have anymore “real” cigarettes.  So for the day I have only had 5 “real” ones…I know, I am a loser .  I am not really feeling too bad about it because I was close to a 2 pack a day smoker!  Now I am smoking less than a 1/2 of pack so that is good.

  Talked to a man today that is on that prescription drug that helps you to not smoke.  He was buying 5 packs of cigarettes.  He said it wasn’t working.  I sold him one of the kits.  I hope it works.

  Someone said to me today that I wasn’t really quitting smoking.  I said what is the difference between one of these and patches?  Patches is putting nicotine into your system, just like this is.  Maybe the patches are a bit more controlled but the way I am thinking is that you have to break the “habit” of smoking before you break the habit of the drug itself.  Am I wrong with this thinking?  With the patches I always wanted to pick up the cigarette and that was in the end my downfall.

  My plan is this, start breaking the habit.  I went up to a medium filter today thinking that I won’t have to use it as much.  Next week I will go to the light filter for a couple of weeks.  Meanwhile I will also break the habit.  I will use a straw to begin that process.  Finally I will go to the lightest filter available.  If this all works, I will be a non-smoker by my birthday which by the way is May 21st.  From the things I have read online I may not have to worry about not smoking by that day because that’s the day the World will end…….

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